Friends. Have you ever wondered.. why are there so many fake friends around trying ti harm you, betray, backstab you and scold you behind your back? There are so many people around you that are fake. Open up your eyes. See who is the true friends and the right friends for you . I met all sorts of fake friends. I've met countless of them . Even the place filled with naive , innocent adorable friends also had afew evils one hidden inside acting like angels. Primary school is were we start growing. In my primary school i met a clique of 6 girls with 4 of their juniors . That 6 girls were the first to hurt me. I had never forgotten the deep cut they gave me in my heart . They claimed that i betrayed them out of nowhere . And when i asked and begged them for forgiveness even though i had relatively done nothing wrong, they requested me to come to one of the girls home as they were there hanging out . It was 5 almost to 6 in the noon . I had tuition soon . I took my bicycle and cycled as fast as i could to meet them . I didnt change, i wore my home clothes . While cycling . I fell down . My knees bled . I didn't know what to do . My bicycle crashed . My bicycle spoilt. I sat there knees bleeding . I couldn't do anything . My knees hurt. I couldn't stand . A boy passed by, he fixed my bicycle and went away . I thanked him and tried standing up . I went back home . The girls called me soon after i texted them . They refused to forgive me for what i hadn't done . I told them i knees were bleeding. They wouldn't believe me . One of a girl , she liked the same idol as me . She told me if i stop liking that idol , she will consider . I was really naive. I cried and told her i can't because i really liked that idol . ( stupid right ) i could've told her okay . But i just cried. And they hang up on me . I cried of days and nights . Countless of days . They ignored me . Left me alone. I cried .
Now comes secondary school . Secondary is just filled with unreasonable girls, childish, immature, evil, girls . Even boys . Playboys, cheat girls out of their feelings . I had a clique of 4 girl friends. They used to hang out and eat with me . But because of that misunderstanding. She just hates me . The so called leader of the group hates me . But. What can i do ? I often offend one of the girl . And the leader also cannot take my attitude. Yes i do admit my attitude is a little bad. But i tried changing. And anyways, shouldn't real friends accept you for who you are ? The leader just claims that i told other people that she spreaded to the whole level of who i liked . But . I really didn't she assumed . I messaged her tons and tons of messages . What did she even do ? Ignored me . I really felt at my lowest when i needed help . Luckily. I finally found a realy friend who stood by me when i needed her. Aidra . She was that realfriend of mine who always stood by me . I treated her for granted and stuff. But. She didnt leave me at all . I felt really ashamed for what i did to her and treating her for granted. But now . I finally know who to treat real well . I will also stay by her when she is at her lowest. Although all my primary school friends are important to me, but aidra knows most of my secret . And i trust her alot . She is that real best friend of mine . She is close to me taking her as my wife. Wife such as a very very very real close friend. Not lesbians but something like sisters. She treate me like how she treats her sister. Shouldn't i give her back sometime too ? That fake friend . To think i gave her such a nice present. She claims that she liked it alot . After accepting my present what did she do to me ? Ignore, hating me . Wow . Is that what you should do to repay me ? The leader of the group . Claims that she wants to punch me on my birthday . Hey hey . Don 't you use my birthday or my mother . If you need to chastise me . Scold me, blame me all you want. Scold me mother, i will show you how it should be done . My mom is not something yiu can say . I 'm the kind of person who if you offend me, i will dig up everything you did bad to me to say . Yes . Im that kind of person . I return you what you gave me .
Although being with the clique of 4 girls is fun . But , i often have to be afraid of offending them for what i said . Is there no freedom of speech ? There is . But why am i even afraid ? Just because of offending them . I have to be careful of every word i use . Only she can be angry at us while we cannot even be angry at her . What logic is this ? Someone even scolded me on ask.fm wow! What a coward. Dare to do it, why not admit it ? If you don't dare to admit . Why say it on the first place? Do you even understand the fact that many teenagers commit sucuide because of cyber bullying ? Just that mean comment of yours can cost a precious little growing person's life. Thst person had a great future. She/he could even outshine you . But . Your nasty disgusting comment just ruin her/his life! Just like that . Its gone . They couldn't take your idiotic comment anymore. All because of you . Think twice. How will you feel if people do that to you ? To the victims, never surrender to sucide and cutting . It is not a solution . You still have a great future. You have your parents , there are always people who stand by you that loves you and wants you dearly don't do silly things. You are beautiful . Haters hate because they are jealous of you . You small little flaw is what that makes you beautiful. No body is perdect. Not even god . Good people shouldn't die so early . But god just took away their life. Is destined is okay . As long as you live life to the fullest. Is okay, smile and be happy . Enjoy life. Don't wait. There is not enough time to wait. Ebjoy it . :) don't surrender to suicides. Haters are just ignorant. They don't know your talent. Here are just pictures to make you feel better . If you feel upset, talk to a trusted adult , your pet or even a pillow. As long as you spill it out, you feel better if not, have a good cry. I cry when i feel upset.
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